Where to begin?

Hmmm...I always forget that I have this blog and than I only want to write when something is bothering me. Well, nothing is bothering me at the moment actually. Aside from the possability of not having a job in two weeks, things have been going pretty good this summer. I have worked steady, gone to the movies (midnight and otherwise), spent time with family, celebrated birthdays, gone to Disneyland a few times, made some new friends, hung out and caught up with old friends, gone to concerts (Incubus, Earth, Wind & Fire, and Chicago, No Doubt), gone to vegas, gone to baseball games (Angels...yea!...and dodgers...ummmm...), gone to Carpinteria, gone to San Diego...it has been great. I am going to see Toby Keith in concert this saturday. Kings of Leon and a Dodger/Cubs game the following weekend, and washington d.c. for a concert the following weekend (thank you KROQ!) Sunday is brunch with the family at Lyss' work...yummy! Vegas at the end of September, Disney World at the end of October...and then...the holidays!

So much has happened in the last year. People have come and gone. People who I thought would be around for a long time. Peole who had been around for a long time are now gone. It hurts to think about it, so I try not too. I have to admit, despite all this fun and what not, I have been kinda down off and on this summer, letting people and situations get to me. Someone told me that what bothers them about me is that I let people get to me. Hmmm...maybe that is true. But I can't help that. I can't help that people hurt my feelings when they talk shit or act a certain way. i hate when people act like they care but don't. is it wrong that it upsets me when that happens? i relly don't like being lied to. there is no reason to. if you are doing something that you think is wrong or is going to hurt me, and you actually give ashit about hurting me, than just don't do it. or have the courage to say "this is how it is." i just hate being made a fool of. because i usually find out. people are not as slick as they think they are when it comes to hiding the truth. just remember that.

but ayways, on a lighter note. i am looking forward to the remainder of the year and am anxious to see how it turns out. I am always excited when i think of my nieces at christmas time. they are all getting so big and are so smart and funny and sarcastic. well not shelby, but she will be soon. avi is a little more reserved, but bia is just running into walls wearing a bucket on her head crazy. i love it all. they are their own little person and i enjoy every minute of the time i get to spend with them.

i guess that is all for now. i plan to update more so stick around, you never know what i will say. ;-)
love ya...
Linda Lou

Maybe...

Maybe I am just not pretty...
Maybe I am not smart...
Maybe I am not funny...
Maybe my laugh is just too annoying...
Maybe I am just too fat...
Maybe I come off too volnuerable...
Maybe I cared too much...
Maybe I didn't care enough...
Maybe it is because I don't have a cool job...
Maybe it is my age...
Maybe it really is just all about location...
Maybe I am one of those people who are destin to have their hearts broken over and over again...
Maybe I am too gullible...
Maybe...
Maybe...
Maybe...

I don't know what it is about me, but maybe one day I will find out why I am like repelant..
Maybe one day...
Maybe...